nobody knows,,,

Nobody knows how many times i've fake a smile, how many times  i cried, how many times i've been hurt.

Nobody knows how many times i've had to hold back my tears, how many times i've been let down, how many times i've been walk out on.

Nobody knows  how many times i've felt like falling apart, but i keep it together for those around me, how many times i've been kicked when i was drown, how many times i scream.

Nobody knows how many times i forgotten, how many it feels to be happy or how long i've been waiting for things to get better. Sometimes i wonder who knows the difference between how i pretend i feel and how i truly feel...